While going to work today.. somebody pressed a complimentray copy of a magazine called 'Tehelka' in my hand at the toll... I flipped a few pages. It contained a lot of good stuff, some gory facts on corruption, on female women going to teach in distant villages and getting raped.. I felt sick.
It had quoted a lot of realities that we know yet ignore!
I felt bad, disgusted, helpless- and then I shut it down.
Went back to my music machine and started listening to the latest songs.
It isn't that the things in the book didn't move me..I went into a loop thinking why people don't buy this mag.. what could be the circulation..why don't I hear it from my peers??
The answer lay in the first thought that had come to my mind when I had finished reading..
I don't want to think about this.. I just feel miserable and sick.. whats the use?
Whatever little time I have between work, home, A and A junior I don't want to kill it thinking about nasty things!
Selfish? Yes!
But thats the bitter truth- the convassors of societal justice will hold me guilty of first degree- charge me of indiffernce- throw statements like- what if this happened to you...
To all this I just have one answer- It happens to me , to my loved ones, to the ppl I care about, to ppl I am acquainted- does it move anybody??? as a matter of fact I AM indifferent and nothing moves me now- specially politically motivated- money for cause movements..
I want to feel this so strongly that I am forced to react- maybe it will take months - years- But I will wait for that day when one such insignificant moment jolts me enough to right the wrongs that I see.. Till then I will enjoy my music- be happy- pray for my people- and also for that one moment that will make me alive again!
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